I am this kind of person, who pushes people away not because I want them gone, but because I want to see and I want to know if they will prove themselves to me behind closed doors, you might see it as being selfish, paranoid, boosting ego. But it is not. Because if a person really wants to be part of your life, they will find ways just to enter and break the doors, the walls you have built and if they cannot open it and break it, surely, they will find another way. A person shouldn’t only love you by just reading the synopsis of your life. That’s The only person I’m really scared of is myself that bitch is crazy shirt.
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You do not know what happened in someone’s prologue. You should know why a person is being like this or why she’s being like that. It is not easy to trust again like before if you’ve been betrayed. And a little consideration from you will mean a lot to her if you’ll knock on her door a little longer, if you’ll try to push the walls a little harder. You do not have an idea how tiring it is to love and be left alone in the end. She had done so many losing battles yet she’s trying to stand still despite of them all. It is not easy to hear the ‘hi’ when you’re already hearing goodbyes. It is not easy to accept people when they will just stay a little longer. How I wish the longer you wait, the more of chance to find someone who’s permanent.
But it is not! Because sometimes, even if you waste the half of your life waiting for some, when they arrived, the day after, they will just fade just like that. And you’ll start questioning yourself if you’ve never loved enough. It is tiring to close and open the door repeatedly—countless of times. You have no idea how many times I restored and changed that door after it got broken for being over used. That’s why now, I’ll loosen up a little bit, calm myself, take it low. Have a little consideration and behind my closed doors, high walls. Show me a little effort. Love this The only person I’m really scared of is myself that bitch is crazy shirt.